i don't want love, i just wanna have flings cause it's easier to handle

What is it with people who misinterpreted my kindness to certain people?
when i'm close with someone, that doesn't mean i'm attracted, it's because i love to hang out.

it doesn't have to mean i want her to be my girlfriend but i just love to hangout.
i mean cmon man. we all can make friends. don't feel like you own me.
i'm really tired of drama as of now, i just wanna lay back a bit for this love stuff, well if its up to me, i don't want love, i just wanna have flings cause it's easier to handle, but no its not up to me, i know how to handle with feelings.
well i guess things like that is hard to find in this crappy town, you know, just having fun with the right fun people. we kinda lack of fun people to hang out with these days, and by people i mean people from different gender.
cause you know, misery loves company, and some things just stressed me out, got me bored, so yeah, i love the company. scratch that, i appreciate the company. but without being misinterpreted. so please don't get me wrong. hey it's my advantage being single, i choose. and it's your choice too, but let's just let aside of those things, i just wanna lay back.

a good friend of mine said to me just the other night,

"deket sama cewe ga salah ko asal lo belum terikat pacaran. tapi gimana cara lo deket sama mereka yang harus hati2, karena takutnya dianggep beda sama yg lo maksud. ga semua cewe itu bisa dianggap santai buat berteman dulu, dan ga semua juga ngerti kalo suatu saat lo menemukan yang lebih baik dari mereka. lo deketin beberapa cewe juga ga salah, lo kan belum punya pacar, dan diperjalanan lo untuk mencari yang terbaik lo pasti butuh beberapa pertimbangan. Tapi masalahnya beberapa dari mereka salah artiin."

Absyar likes this.
I will keep that in mind.
all I can say is a friend like her is pretty hard to find. Hey, thanks for stood up for me the other night when your friends was saying stuff about me. Hi 5!

So, you blokes wanna hang out?
I'm still looking for a partner in crime.
Bandung is a big playground.

Hello, Future Girlfirend

Earlier I was taking mental inventory. On everyone, everything, all of the past events for the last few months and stuff. It made me think. Why do I want what I want? Do I want what I want? Should I take a step forward? or should I really be worried about if I need to be taking a step backwards?

I feel like I am just stuck in neutral. I know what I want to do and also what I should or could do. I'm not sure which I need to be doing though. Which one will be more beneficial. Will they be equally beneficial? or will neither path pay off? What are my motives? I would really like to answer these questions. However, I'm not sure that I can. This is a very interesting part of my life and I am eager to see how it will play out.

Until then, I think that in order to be able to answer these questions, I will need to regroup, reorganize, and re-prioritize. I have been a little bit irresponsible lately and I would really like to put more effort into important things, like putting things in priorities. I should slow down and think about everything. I should slow down and enjoy simple things. I should probably also slow down and think about what I say, what I do, and how I spend my time. From now on, I am going to try to make a conscious effort to focus more on what is important and less on what is not.

If you read all of that, then kudos to you.